Family

Ok, so I have come to terms with the fact that my family does not like me and will never like me.

My father...he and I big time disagree over my mother. Maybe the understatement of the year? In short, he only cares about himself and when anyone talks to him, it's all about how his health and his life suck.

My sister...very, extremely self-centered. I don't think I can over-exaggerate that statement. She only talks to me when she needs something. She gets super pissy when people don't pay attention to her and what is going on in her life, but heaven forbid she asks you anything about yours.

My brother...he once told me that if our family were the mob, I would have been taken out a long time ago. He thinks you are worthless if you make a decision he disagrees with and he hasn't spoken to me in over a year.

None of them came to visit me at my house EXCEPT when we lived in Hawaii...free trip, ya know? No one even asked me how I was doing when I was pregnant last time with R. My father went around my aunt's funeral last December proclaiming to the whole family that I was getting divorced. My father also told me it was a waste of time and money to go back to school. After all, that is not a woman's place...especially a woman with children.

Ok, so my father comes over today...first time in like 18 months. He's never seen R. before and bitched to me earlier that I never told him I had him. Uh, why the hell would you care?! He wouldn't even hold him and barely looked at him. He then goes on about how my brother always complains that my sister never answers his emails...uh, he never even emails ME! But thanks for pointing that out, dad. I told him he should come to the range and shoot guns with us some time and he spouts off about women and shooting. I told him I have a job interview in January and nothing. I told him I graduate in spring and nothing. NOTHING! I am the first f*cking person in my family to graduate from college and I worked D*MN hard for it!! But hey, I also told my sister those two things and all she could muster up was how SHE could never go back to work and leave her kids. Yeah, thanks for the support.

I have been told that I just hate everyone. Huh?

I really wonder if I was adopted. Thank god for friends, that's all I can say. Family sucks.